Day 100

time really fly...we cant even notice..
today, after remind by one of the fren, i notice that today is the first 100 days together with him..
what my feeling now?
i am little bit upset, little bit worry, little bit happy, and little bit sweet...
upset because u r not with me today, worry because of worry la..
happy because i know u miss me, sweet because i know u love me..
may be other have objection on u, but i dont care...
u r very good, very care with me, nice looking in my heart..
and the most important is i love u and u love me..
Hope there is no ending between u and me..


what i have done for these few weeks?
busying for my final year thesis, assignment, and my part time (writing article)
everyday busying, but i will still spend sometime to meet him and miss him...^-^

Worry!

is worrying now..
but dont ask me what am i worry for? i also dont know..very confuse..
may be homework, relationship, friendship, or their combination..
just not motivated to do anything..everyday hanging with facebook, PPS, sleep and daydreaming...
just hope to get rid of everything...
but when everything gone, then i will feel the emptiness...
haiz.... what actually i want?
i dont wish to have the best among the other, but at least i am satisfied with..
like talking nonsense here..^-^
for the relationship, the feeling of getting love get deeper and deeper...from my side toward him..
how he think? but i believe he has the same feeling with me.. ^-^
Hope everything go fine..i can complete my studies, further my studies oversea...
as well as further our relationship...
I hope and i worry
i wish and i try to not think so much but yet i worry...
is it the human personality or my personality only? God know!

Trip + wedding dinner...

Last weekend, had a trip to penang and ipoh.. Quite nice but tired..
A very good experience..i wonder why i dare to drive in kl, somemore drive to penang..hehe
Saturday morning, wake up at 5.30am (sleep at 2.00am), damn sleepy de...
fetch everyone and say 'hi' to penang..
the first station, kek lo shi... before going up, have a bowl of asam laksa... the only thing i can say is it taste weird to me.. but others keep going praise on the asam laksa...wonder why? hehe
take lots of photo, but only a few include me...may be i am the only alien in this trip..
the next station, go to penang road for centul.. A very very long queue at the small stall...
alright it quite nice de...worth it..
At night, we have our dinner (Thai food)..forget the name edy..
located at high hill..a very nice night view, something similar as look out point..
i only sleep at 1am, i think..
Next day, wake up at 7, depart at 8 to ipoh...
have our breakfast at 'FU SHAN dim sum'... yup, the 'no mai gai' very nice...i like it..
hanging around the ipoh town... go to one castle too...
at the evening, have the nice hot spring at sungkai...
end up, reach home at 11pm... TIRED...


Yesterday attend one of my classmate wedding dinner...
first day receive the 'red boom', and also the first to attend the wedding dinner in kl...
Unfortunately, i late...only able to reach there around 9 pm..
reasons? speechless.....
anyway, enjoy my dinner there and take lots of photo...
and we are the noisier in the dinner...haha

Boring appointment!

watch a movie with a friend in time square..
the movie is damn nice.. i like it..

What i want to write not focus on the movie but the one watch the movie with me..
we have the appointment a 3pm, but he only appear around 3.30..
i didn't blame him, because i know he may rush for something...but at least he must inform me that he will be late..
to show his sincerity, at least he must do so..
i use to be puncture, and hope my friends including ladies to be puncture as well (except for reasonable excuse)
for first time, i will forgive..
but please, not next time...
and if really will be late, INFORM ME!
so, i will not like a idiot waiting for u.

somemore, we have no much topic to talk to..
communication between 2 persons will only be interesting if both of them involve..
not only one person find the topic and the another person answer..such a boring appointment...

Holidays!!!!

Damn tired today..
Accompany my best friend- Mr. Ah Kiong...
shopping at Mid-valley, The garden, petaling street...
talk a lots, eat a lots, gossip a lots, and sure my weight gain a lots too...haiz...
Human is sucks..
when busying with study or work, hope for holidays;
when enjoying their holidays, look for matter to busy with..
WTF!
Actually, want to buy lots of thing..but control myself..save money to buy gift for dad and mum...
And i try to save my own money..for a purpose..
even i know, it doesnt help lots and may not be turn into reality..but at least i try..
yup, i have to try...i dont want waste my life...

追求的是？

刚刚看了某人的blog, 让我想了许多！
我真的甘心让我的一生平平凡凡的过吗？
我记得曾几何时，我告诉自己人生不要白过，
可是走过了人生二十一的年头，回想起之前走过的路，才知道都是白过的！
时间一去不返，我可以做些什么呢？
读了三年自己没有很喜欢的科目，虽然是读的不错，可是就是少了那一份喜悦。
自己不开心，就算读得再好也没用！
人生在世追求的不过就是一份简简单单的喜悦，兴奋吗？
不知现在去追求，会太慢吗？

End of exam!

The end of exam = start of holidays = start of the boring and meaningless days
first activity: Genting Highlands with my gang... not so exciting because had been there for few times already.
Second: unknown, perhap shopping?
Third: unknown, perhap meet friends?
Fourth: coming Cameran Highland trip with bebe... anticipating, never been there and also the first trip with bebe..hope everything go smooth...
Now watch drama, animation to pass the boring and the meaningless days..
impossible to take out the note to start doing the assignment and thesis...
haha....

very confusing!

before the day,
i know what i want...
i know what i look for...
i know what i need...
i know what my heart...
BUT
after the day,
i lost, totally lost...

My ANGLE appears when i am down....

Long time didn't update my blog already... many things happen...
finish all the assignments, submit part 1 of the thesis, gone through exam for 4 subjects and one more to go...
this afternoon, having the fourth exam, don't know what i am writing, just 'hamtap' everything...
and feel less and less confident...
this semester, i feel my confident and courage just left me behind...
serious thing happen to my friend...feel sorry for not find him...many things block my ways to do so..
all and all made my mood down, feel upset, frustrated...almost lost my way...
but luckily, because of YOU, has change my life...
u appear at the right time
listen to my problem and guide me like the thesis;
cry in front of you when i feel upset;
encourage and support me in everything;
care me when i feel i am needed;
make me no more alone;
i feel so sweet!
i dont know what we will become in the future, but i appreciate now...
i believe, a good way is waiting for us to go through..even with all those disturbance...
NICE TO HAVE U IN MY LIFE!

Tiring day!

Today, 25/07/09, my diploma convocation...after almost one year graduate then the convo ceremony is held today...
waiting today for so long edy...
In fact, it should be a very happy day...
i have been awarded diploma in distinction plus book prize which are only 2 ppls out of whole of the course (i think is 200++ ppl ba) and i am the one of the two..
so, do u say am i should be very very very happy...
In fact yes...
but in reality is only okok nia la...
dont ask me the reasons!
i am curious also...
the only little bit happiness is come from my family and frens.. they are so happy, so i must very happy too..
especially my parents, even they didnt show their happiness much, but i know in their heart, they really feel pround of me...because their son is 1 out of 2.
get a little dissapointed due to small small things.. when the photography session...but is alright...

when i type till here, my tear almost drop edy...
i never even so easy to let my tear drop..but just dont know why?
Any ony can tell me?
dont know why, today i miss him so much..

*photo will be uploaded next time...really very tired edy...

Second day at Melaka

At the second day, wake up early..actually not early, but because sleep very late ma...
very tired..but still excited to hang around...cant waste the time on sleeping...
eat breakfast: yong tao fu and porridge..eh, consider ok lo...
go around melaka..especially the small small street.
at noon...our lunch is chicken rice ball...quite dissappointed...because not as nice as i thought..
just the normal chicken rice shaped into ball only....
after that..visit to zoo melaka...
spend whole afternoon at zoo...dont know why?
grilled fish, la-la, sotong at night...hehe... but i cant really enjoy it due to sore throat...haiz...
later, having a tour around the melaka..the night view is really nice... enjoy it...

suddenly fell that is the life i want...

Melaka trip

On 28/06 sunday, i have a tour to Melaka with my ah luen...
Not really have fun, but consider ok la...
eat a lot of local food like the chicken rice ball, satay lok lok, cendol, grilled fish and many many more...
really thank a lot to ah luen's friend (li pei) for bring us throughout this journey..
meet lot of ah luen's friends...all very nice...

First day, we depart from Pudu raya at 11.00pm...not excatly on time la dus to the celaka bus...
reach melaka around 1 pm...li pei come and bring us for a nice lunch - Nyonya food
i love to eat everything...anything , so i like the food very much
after that, check in to guest house (i am quite poor, the hotel is affordable)
the guest house only cost RM50 per room per night...but truely speaking..very clean...
the only bad is that the toilet is located outside the room..everyone share the toilet...but luckly the toilet also quite clean..
after that, have a walk at the Dataran Pahlawan...buy nothing...
visit around the melaka..the road is damn small..i wonder why the melaka people dont want to widen the road....
i guest... may be of the Melaka feel... they want to keep their tradisional culture..
satay lok lok as our dinner...
i dont know why isthe special of the satay lok lok it till everyone is queue there to wait others to leave...
at night, have a walk at the famous street (chinese call it as ji chang jie) - jolker street (hope spell correctly)...selling a lot of souvenir...but i still but nothing..dont know why...
afetrward, having karaoke at dream box...that is the end of the first day...

the toilet shared by everyone at guest house

jolker steer (ji chang jie)

Drag me to hell !

Last night, i suppose to stay at home for my bulk assignment...
but end up follow with classmates go for movie at mid-valley..
The movie titled "Drag me to hell"
Yes, it is a scary movie, but very nice...

"A loan officer ordered to evict an old woman from her home finds herself the recipient of a supernatural curse, who turns her life into a living hell. Desperate, she turns to a seer to try and save her soul, while evil forces work to push her to a breaking point." (source: GSC)

So, today i need to suffer and rush for the assignment and thesis too...
Haiz, the assignment drag me to the hell too...

i need motivation !!!

Well, the end of the third week already..
sure, this weekend, i suppose need to rush for my assignment already..
but yet i am hanging around...watch drama until the late night...
i have plan the schedule for today..once wake up, what come first and so on...
but unfortunately, i do not follow...
and i am NOT motivated to start doing any works yet...
6 subjects with assignment and one touch thesis are waiting for me...

COME ON !!!
WAKE UP !!!

Study life full of stresses !!!!

Tomorrow is the dead line to submit my proposed thesis title
Well, i have an idea already, just worry that my title will be bend.
but i think i wouldn't happen...because i am quite confident my title is not done by other yet...
the only thing that i worry about is the assignment of the supervisor...
sure, everyone want a good supervisor including me...

Today, first day become the lab demo...
very embarassing when the junior ask me the question but unable to answer
but never mind...
try my best...

Getting fool?

Last night and today, i feel so desperate...
my best friend angry with me...for something that i didnt done..
ya, may be if i treat u as my good friend, i suppose to tell u everything..
but the thing should be about mine but not the other...
if i really tell you, that mean i really CANNOT be trust...
last night i keep asking why he cant understand my situation...
but i dont know, i really dont know...

Today, just because of 1 call, i suddenly have a mind that i get fool...
get fool by my 2 best friends...but it may be true...
i really hope that is not true..

"Friendship ",
till now, when i am 22 , still a crucial problem to me !!!

my joybook S53!!!

My computer int. hard disk say bye bye to me already..
after 3 years together with me, but finally leave me alone...
never mind, another new hard disk come and accompany me for another 3 years..
but of course hopefully can more than 3 years la..
It costs me more than RM 200++...haiz...really need to do some part time job ah..
Everything come to me at the right time,
Tun from UOA call me yesterday asking me whether want go back to do part time..
and i get appointed to become the lab demo also (even is only 3 hours la)
but better than nothing la...
if i start the part time work, sure i will become very busy from next week onwards...
but never mind la, just take it as the new challenge to me...

Formatting my computer

A new beginning

Back to Kl again...
Back to the study life again...
yes, study is totally different from working...
but similarly both have to face the unknown challeges n heavy stresses...
Today is the first day
meet the old friends, feel that the gaps between us become bigger and bigger
heard the old people, if one didnt see his friend for long time, when they meet again, sure they have a lot of thing to talk....
but it do not apply my situation....
but is ok, only the first day, still a long way to go..
also, this year is my final year already...become the most senior in the college...
i have been in kl for 3 years already, time fly damn fast..
i even not realize that...
really old liao lo...
but never mind, just tell myself, be brave to continue with your journey...
one day, u will find your purpose to be in this world...
Gambateh...

What the holidays?

These two days, really very….also don’t know how to say…
Talks a lots with ah luen, a deep talk…really a deep talk..
my things is being known by him, but I don’t mind…I know this day will coming..
just not expect the day will come so suddenly…but I believe him…
very sorry to him also…
I want to behave like ordinary… I prefer to choose a simple way (very confusing)
Or in other word, I dare not to try …I am timid…YES, I AM.
Ah kiong is such a kepo person…but thanks to him, he just wants me sweet like him…
I sincerely hope a luen can find his way, of course the best one…
As well, I also hope that I can find my way!!!

Spaghetti by ah luen

I feel release

Every tasks will end one day and new challenges will come approach you..and u just cant do anything but try your best to overcome all of this…That is LIFE.
Yes, I completed my training already.. and complete the report as well…
At the last day, the GM treated 5 of the trainee s go for lunch – Tosaya, a very nice environment Japanese restaurant (but unfortunately forget to take the photo, haiz)
GM, Mr. David is such a nice person… he give advices to us as well as some recommendation
This training is very formal stuff for them as compared to my previous training company, which I think is good for us..Thanks UOA.
All the staffs are very nice also, except someone(forgive me not to tell who are the one) hehe
But anyway, thanks a lot for them… treat us the chewing bun which really very chewing.
Even this is not very nice, but I appreciate it.
Have some photography section with the staff also.. a nice and good memory for me..to remind me that I have such a happy time with them..
Before leaving, I have been asked what is my current feeling?
U know, I dare to answer her, I feel release!!!!
But I do not lie, I really release.
Finally bek to home already…a real, true home…with my father, mother, ben ben and all family member…got a feeling don’t want to go anywhere again. Cos I know every of them will not endanger me. I not need to hide my original character..
be myself again… one more time, release again…
meet the ah kiong and ah luen also, happy time to talk…

5 of the trainees.。

all the QS

Chewing Bun

08/05/2009 - The End

08-05-2009 Friday , A happy day!
Today I am going to end my internship already..
Yeah!!!!

Starting training on 16/02/2009 until now, exactly 12 weeks (3 months)
Wonder how I go through this ‘dark’ period?
But, human is like that…when do something that u dislike, u hope the time really can fly
But when u really get rid of it, u will miss those suffer time..
Is it human’s bad characteristics?

This 3 months really see a lot of things..
more clear about myself , wonder how can I work in this kind of condition until retired?
I think everyone is prefer just sit at house and the money will drop from sky, the only job for u to do is to pick up the money..
But for me, I also can’t stand for this life..
I prefer to work senang senang, at least can wake up at whatever time I like..haha…
But again, only when u are the big boss, or else u can’t do that..

I am a guy with least talk, but also very kepo (for the interesting topic like who in relationship with who, who heart broken already…..)
May be because I am not so socialize with the colleague, so they will think I am ‘lan shi’
But this is mine, I cant control how they think of me…

All the best to them….and also to me…
I still have a long ways to go…unknown is waiting for me… be courage!